Testing my Temper

So if you knew me as a child you knew I had a temper.  Still do but have quite a bit more control of it and don't lose control very often.  Well yesterday my little girl sure decided it was time to test the limits and see how far she could push mommy.  You know from my last post that I don't feel very good and well the mood swings are starting to kick in.  So it doesn't take much right now to push my buttons.  First we went to the store in the morning and she is usually really helpful and loves to be at the store.  But according to her I wasn't letting her help me enough so she tired to climb the shopping cart.  Now having a bad experience of tipping a shopping cart while younger has made me very caution when it comes to shopping carts.  Well Kayla didn't want to here the words no or please get down and then proceeded to throw herself to the floor and throw a fit.  Again I'm very tired and didn't really want to deal with this so I just ignored it and proceeded to pay for the grocerys.  When she realized that she wasn't getting any attention she stop and we made it out of the store without anymore incidents.  Score one for me.

Well the next part is well a nightmare to me.  I had just gotten a brand new glider rocking chair and ottoman!  I love this thing!  So we get home I needed to rest so I put in a movie and Kayla is sitting in the glider.  I look over and this is what I see.  Yes that's right that is pen all over my brand new chair.  She knew she was in trouble.  I asked her to go to her room so I could cool off and she did it.  I think she realized how much trouble she was in and when I went into her room she was laying on her bed with the look of terror in her eyes.  I was able to keep my cool and explained about where we can color and she told me sorry.  Score two for me!  Lucky for me all the pen came out with a carpet stain remover pretty easily.
I am happy to say I made it through that day with out losing it.  It would have been a lot easier but then I would have had so much guilt for losing it.