Carter is here!

 

 Carter William was born November 2nd at 3:15 pm.  While trying to clean him up the nurses noticed that is very difficult to suction out the fluid he had swallowed.  When looking at the back of his throat there was a very small opening in the back.  They were very concerned that he wasn't going to get enough oxygen and be able to eat.  So they whisked him away from me to the nursery to make sure he was going to be okay.  Once they pediatrician looked at him they discovered that he actual has a cleft pallet.  It's only on the soft pallet and in the very back.  Well the hospital we were at did not have the equipment and to take care of him so they decided to transport him to Primary Childrens.  I was very lucky to be able to hold him and see him before they took him by ambulance.  Here is a picture of him before they took him away.  

 

It looks a really scary but he was just being monitored and nothing else.  He was breathing well on his own and happy as a clam.  Once he was there the nurse called me to let me know that he had arrived safe and to ask me if it was okay to give him a bottle.  I said of course because of if he's eating he's getting better.

 

He ate really good and

 they gave him a bath.  He loved having his hair washed!!!  What a handsome boy I've got!  So I was released the next day from my hospital and I went as fast as I could to Primary's.  I felt so much better once I was there with Carter.  They had given me a sleeping pill to help me sleep the night before, great idea or I probably would have not slept.

Carter will have to a surgery to fix the cleft pallet but only one! This was fantastic news!  He will need to do speak therapy but in all it's the best case scenario for a cleft pallet.  As long as he is gaining weight and eating good we won't have to do the surgery until he's around 8 months. 

 

Carter got a new hat from my mother in-law.  Graydon was very excited can you guess why?

 

We even got to spend some time with him while he was awake.  He has beautiful eyes!

 

And the best part of all was he finally got to miss his big sister!!  Kayla was super excited.  She would hold him a little bit then let someone else hold him then she would hold him again.  She couldn't hold still.  Then me and Graydon took her to dinner in the cafeteria, just us.  She really enjoyed that.  She just loves her little brother.

It's tomorrow!

That's right baby boy will be joining us tomorrow!!  I am so excited!  We have prepped Kayla with all the different things that are going to happen.  She is going to have her first sleep over at Baba's house tomorrow night.  She is pretty excited about that.  She knows that tomorrow mommy is going to the doctor's and the doctor is going to help the baby come out.  I'm so happy she accepts this explanation right now.  We just entered the why phase and she could be asking more questions.  She also knows that mommy and the baby have to stay at the hospital for a little bit to make sure they are healthy and strong.  We haven't promised her when she will see her brother because we don't know.  So next time I post it will be of our expanded family!!
I'm so excited to finally meet this guy!

Inducement date set!!

I set up my inducement today!! I'm so excited it will be on November 2nd in the morning!  That's less than 2 weeks from now.  Of course he could decide to come on his own too.  I'm already at a 2 1/2 and next week my doctor will be at a conference and Graydon has 3 tests.  So if murphy's law comes into effect here I will go into labor next week right before one of Graydon's tests.  Well we shall see what happens.  I'm excited to have an end date in sight and it's so close.  It also means I only have 7 more days of work which is nice!

Well until next time!

There is an end in sight!!

So had my doctor's appointment yesterday and I'm dilating nicely and the baby is head down and dropped down.  Now most of this is making me more uncomfortable because he is so low but there is good news.  My doctor says he could come any day but if he doesn't come by November 2nd he will induce me!!  Yea that's a week before my due date so if baby doesn't come on his own I only have a little over 2 weeks to go!  It made me so happy to hear!  I was induced a week early with Kayla and I loved being induced.  I only felt a half hour of contractions and I was able to get everything in order because it was planned.  But we shall see if he waits that long, he is so low that the doctor could actually feel his head when he was checking me.  THERE IS A END IN SIGHT!  I can't wait to meet the little guy!  Kayla has started asking when her brother will be here.  I have to tell her soon but she doesn't really understand that.  I'm ready for him to make his entrance but we will have to wait and see.

28 weeks

I can't believe I am in my third trimester!  It has gone by so fast.  With Kayla I was so ahead of the game and was all about getting everything ready.  But with this one it sure is sneaking up on me.  I don't feel like I'm ready at all or have things out of storage but I also don't feel the need to do that yet.  So I guess I will be doing a lot the last month when I finally realize how close it is.   But other than that I feel pretty good, tired but good.  He is all out front and down low so I can feel it tugging and pulling my stomach when I pick up things.  Kayla is starting to become too difficult for me to lift.  Well this is when the baby is really suppose to pack on the pounds so lets see how big I get.

Feeling Very Pregnant

So I am now 25 weeks and I'm really starting to feel very pregnant.  I dropped something at work and found it very tricky to bend over and pick it up.  I am having a harder time getting up from the ground when I sit down to interact with the kids at school.  The baby is kicking around more and more and Kayla is getting excited now that she sees my belly getting bigger.  I am trying to keep Kayla as involved as ever.  The other day I was washing and putting away clothes that my friend gave me and Kayla had to comment on every outfit and I had her help me put them away.  I have so many clothes for 0 to 3 months that I'm very excited about that.  This picture is of what I have put away already and I still have tons more to put away.

Speaking of Kayla she is being such a big girl.  The other night she decided that she didn't want to wear pull ups to bed any more.  We said okay and after a couple nights of accidents she has been doing great with no accidents.  I'm very proud of her!!  It will be nice to have her completely potty trained and only one kid in diapers!! When she was refusing to poop on the potty I bribed her.  She wanted a princess dress so much!  Well she got it.  here's my cute girl in her princess dress.

So to top off this entry here is a picture of me at 25 weeks.

Life is complicated.

So trying to figure out what to do with work and the two kids in January has really been pressing on our minds.  It's so expensive to have an infant in child care even with a discount.  I also have that nagging that I really just want to be a full time mom.  It's always in the back of my mind but I know that I need to help out and work.  Some days are harder then others to go to work and miss my daughters funny games and watch her grow.  It seems like a constant battle within me and sometime I feel defeated.  Like today when Kayla's eye was all gross and she needed to go to the doctor and I couldn't get out of work and lucky for me Graydon was able to get her.  I want to be able to just be there in a second to fix things.  It was just a tough day and tomorrow when me and Graydon have juggled our schedules to be able to keep her home.  I wish it was easier to not have to juggle.  Sorry I'm complaining but some days it hits me harder than others.  I just want to be mom today and I had to be mom and worker.  Oh well, I will pick myself up and get through it and know that it's best for my family.

It's a ......

Ultra sound was today and the baby looks really healthy and everything is there.  The baby's heart is beating strong.  Oh and we found out what we are having and the results are a.....

 

Hand sucking.....

 

Kicking baby.....

 

BOY!!!

Doctor appointment

I didn't get yelled at because I gained a pound!  He told me if I didn't start gaining weight last time we would have to look at why.  I measured a little big, (surprise) for 17 weeks but he wasn't worried.  Kayla almost didn't make it out of the doctors office alive!  She was going through other peoples purses and in general not listening to mommy at all!  So I sat her on a chair to have a talk with her and screaming ensued.  That lasted for about 10 mins!  I got those looks like just control your child.  It was not very fun.  So after I finally got her to stop screaming I was able to talk to her about how we act.  Lucky for me Graydon came to my rescue and took over while I saw the doctor.  It really got my temper flared and I was so irritated that she would act that way.  I had to remind myself that she is just 2.  So lets hope she learned from the experience that mommy means it when she says no and I can control my temper because I'm sure with two little ones I will need all the patience in the world.

 Oh here's a picture of me almost 19 weeks along.

June 21st!!

That's the date that we find out what we are having!  I am getting so excited.  I'm feeling the baby more now and I'm growing of course.  I will take a picture in the next little bit to show the growth.  Work is going okay.  Didn't get the job but I'm moving forward.  Looking for every chance to get better and grow.  Will keep you updated and vote on what you think we are going to have on our family blog.

Being Sick While Pregnant.

So it pretty much sucks when you are sick, but when you are sick and pregnant it's even worse.  It feels like everything is ten time worse than it is.  I woke up with a sore throat and a cough and man does it hurt.  One thing I'm super grateful for is that my doctor's office gave me this wonderful little sheet that tells me what medicines are safe to take while pregnant!  I didn't have this with Kayla and would have to call the office and leave a message and wait for someone to call me back and tell me what I can take.  Now I have my handy little paper that I look under cold and cough medicine and I know what I can take.  Thank you little paper you are my best friend!! 

Florida

So we went to Florida with all of my family.  It was great to get away and to get warm.  Since it was snowing when we left we were totally ready for the heat.  At least that's what I thought.  It was 90 degrees and humid!  Well the heat has made me sick!  It's not very fun, I can only stand a half hour up to an hour out and about before I have to find some place cool where I have to sit down.  It was nice because then I got all the rest I could use but Kayla wanted to play.  Lucky for me my family was nice and helped out.  Disney World was difficult but fun I just kept walking into shops to keep cool.  My feet did swell up pretty good after that day but ti was fun.  I am not looking forward to summer in Utah now that I know what it does to me but I don't want to go back to the cold.  It was a good trip but I am ready to go back home.  For pictures and more details about the trip go to my family blog.  Sorry this entry is a little whinny but I feel so lazy right now and wish I had more energy for Kayla.

Feeling the Baby!

So I felt the baby the other day!  I forgot how amazing that feeling is.  To feel the life that is growing in your stomach makes it more than real.  But I have to say this little kid is sure a mover!  Always jumping around and making me stop to feel the movement.  We shall see if it continues as the baby gets bigger.  But if it does I'm in for a lot of belly dances!

Testing my Temper

So if you knew me as a child you knew I had a temper.  Still do but have quite a bit more control of it and don't lose control very often.  Well yesterday my little girl sure decided it was time to test the limits and see how far she could push mommy.  You know from my last post that I don't feel very good and well the mood swings are starting to kick in.  So it doesn't take much right now to push my buttons.  First we went to the store in the morning and she is usually really helpful and loves to be at the store.  But according to her I wasn't letting her help me enough so she tired to climb the shopping cart.  Now having a bad experience of tipping a shopping cart while younger has made me very caution when it comes to shopping carts.  Well Kayla didn't want to here the words no or please get down and then proceeded to throw herself to the floor and throw a fit.  Again I'm very tired and didn't really want to deal with this so I just ignored it and proceeded to pay for the grocerys.  When she realized that she wasn't getting any attention she stop and we made it out of the store without anymore incidents.  Score one for me.

Well the next part is well a nightmare to me.  I had just gotten a brand new glider rocking chair and ottoman!  I love this thing!  So we get home I needed to rest so I put in a movie and Kayla is sitting in the glider.  I look over and this is what I see.  Yes that's right that is pen all over my brand new chair.  She knew she was in trouble.  I asked her to go to her room so I could cool off and she did it.  I think she realized how much trouble she was in and when I went into her room she was laying on her bed with the look of terror in her eyes.  I was able to keep my cool and explained about where we can color and she told me sorry.  Score two for me!  Lucky for me all the pen came out with a carpet stain remover pretty easily.
I am happy to say I made it through that day with out losing it.  It would have been a lot easier but then I would have had so much guilt for losing it.

Tired of being tired!

So I have been crazy tired this pregnancy and it's really hard to do my job and more importantly to be a good mom to Kayla.  Because I'm tired I am also very cranky.  I have to catch myself before exploding at simple things.  My work doesn't know I'm pregnant yet and they have noticed how tired I am.  I just want to wait until I'm past the scariest time and risk of miscarriage before I tell them.  It's really frustrating to not be able to explain myself and I just have to plaster a smile on my face and hope for the best.  I'm hoping this will past with time and that I will have more energy to keep up with my beautiful baby girl. 

On another note I found out an old friend of mine just had a miscarriage.  It broke my heart!  I know how much she loves kids and wanted kids and she will be a good mommy.  But of course it's hard to find the words to let that friend that you care.  I don't know what she is going through and can't imagine.  It has been on my mind for the past couple weeks of how to reach out to her but I just can't figure out what to do.  It also freaks me out because I am about as pregnant as she was when she miscarried.  I know it shouldn't freak me out but it does.  Well that is what is on my mind of late and the things I'm working through.
Bye

Keeping my thoughts

So in order to keep track of things different about this pregnancy from my first I've started this blog like a journal to keep track of the things you forget about when you were pregnant.  Like I don't remember being this tired with Kayla.  Of course I also have a more physical job this time.  I also have been prone to morning sickness at any time of the day.  I have been craving dairy products like none other!!  Worries have been that I have been spotting a bit and it scares me.  They say that many women do so in their first trimester but it still gets to you.  So this one has been really different so far.  I will try to keep this up to date with experiences and thoughts.